Holy crap! It has been almost a year since I have posted to this! 

Okay, so the rundown of what has been going on in my life:

I found a security job. It sucked I quit and went to Wal-Mart.

I worked all summer excpet for one week when I escaped to Algonquin with my brother, mom, future sister-in-law, and future brother-in-law. Lots of fun.

I went back to school in September, while still working at Wal-Mart.

Just before Thanksgiving, I got a promotion, YAY, and now I really like my job.

Christmas came and went, I managed to get home for a day or so, but then I was needed back at work to deal with the after Christmas rush, eww.

Went back to school in January, but couldn't get into it. Still working at Wal-Mart.

Dropped out of school, again, and am now looking for a new apartment, oh joy, and a new job, double joy.

On the plus side, I made some new friends and some new choices, in my life.

I found a few new movies that I like, as wel as being addicted to CSI:New York, Bones, and the BBC's new Robin Hood (historically inacurate, but the men are hot and it has entertainment value.)

I'm still writing whenever I get the chance, and saving up my money for travel. Hopefully my first stop is New York, from there the world!

And that's this past year in a nutshell!

Okay, here it is, the bare bones of my life:
I get up in the morning or afternoon, after a most unrefreshing sleep. I debate whether or not I want to get dressed, then I sit in front of my computer and read and write. I do this for a few hours before I decide that either, I'm hungry or that I want to play solitaire. Let's face it, the solitaire beats out the food nearly every time. Then I sit and ignore my ringing telephone and my friends who would probably chat with me on-line if I ever took my status off Appear Offline. Then I sit and daydream of what I wish my life was like while my fingers fly over the keys, turning my dreams into a story of who I wish I was.

Then sometime in the very early morning, I end up with a migraine and decide to try and get some sleep. I pass out for a few hours before waking up and doing it all over again.

How pathetic is that?

Well, I am making a decision. I won't stand for that anymore. Today, March 15th at 12:11am I have decided that I'm going to get up and try my hardest to live each day to the fullest. It's not going to be easy, and I probably will want to give up on more than one occasion, but it doesn't matter, I WILL do it! I WILL be the change I want to see in my life.

There is no day but today - Rent

Hey all,

I know I said last time that I was going to update the next day, but I've been dealing with some things lately, so this sort of got pushed to the back burner.

Let's see, where do I start?

Classes are going well, but it's only the third week and I don't even want to go anymore. I'd rather stay home, sleep and write.

Yeah, this writing thing kind of took me by surprise. I mean, to some extent, I have always loved writing, but within the last three days it has become all consuming. It's kind of scary. I mean, I was just sitting at my computer one day and I got an idea for a story, no biggie right, happens to me all the time. Well, 20 pages and 10,000 words later, I'm still going strong. My little idea for a story is turning into a monster of a series (yes series, I've already got a ton of notes written for the sequels.)then of course, all of my other work seems so insignificant next to my stories. I tried to write a Genre Analysis for my Professional writing class. It's due tomorrow, but I haven't got anything. All I can think about is this story. Anyways, this writing class has got to go. It's not what I thought it was going to be so I think I'm just going to cut my losses and drop the class. This way I get my mornings back and I get some money back too. Seems like a win-win to me. Only downside, I lose the credit. But at this point that's okay because I probably would've failed it if I'd stayed.

Part of me wants to drop everything but my Italian and French. I really don't want to continue Italian any more, but I've already put in a whole semester, I may as well finish. I'm pretty sure I can get the credit for it too. I mean, I'm not doing wonderfully, but I'm holding my own above 60. My French classes seem to be where I really excel. I mean, last term I got 88% and with class being only once a week for four hours, I was able to motivate myself to go a lot easier.

Other news, I finally got a job! WooHoo! Okay, maybe not so much. I'm nervous about it. It's with a security company, which is not a bad thing, but I'm not sure if they will be flexible when it comes to my class schedule. I told them that I was only looking for part-time work and that it would have to be around my classes, but I guess I'm still nervous. I've had employers in the past who have put me down to work on days I specifically told them I couldn't. I guess that has biased me toward all future employers too. Anyway, thinking positive! This job will work out, and I will be fine. Yep. And if the worst should happen and they decide to be jerks, I'll just quit.

Other news, ummm... I was searching on the internet today for writing jobs, and it turns out there are a lot of writer's unions and most of them have contests for aspiring writers, like me. This is when I wish I could find all of the stories I wrote in Writer's Craft in high school. There was some descent material there. At least some workable material. A lot of stories that I had started to satisfy an assignment then abandoned. I'd like to get my hands on them now and see if I could continue them or rework them for some of these contests.

I still desperately want to go to New York. I looked online to get an idea of how much it's going to cost me and nearly fainted. It's going tobe expensive, but hopefully I'll be able to sock a little bit of money away each month for my New York fund. Fingers crossed.

Anyways, I should get going, it's late and I will probably get side tracked by my story on my way to bed again. that and it's cold in my place. My fingers are starting to go numb from being exposed. Not fun!

~Later

Yeah, a long while. Things have been really hectic with exams then the holidays. Exams went well I guess, didn't make much difference in the long run, but I went and I at least gave it my all. Can't do much more than that.

The new semester started on tuesday, oh joy oh rapture :insert sarcasm here:
But oh well. It looks like I've got some descent classes, but nothing to tell me which direction I should be pointing my life. I had French today which was fun. My professor said something thought that I can't stop thinking about. We were talking after class, and she all of the sudden asked me if I'd lost weight over the holidays. Now, I was kinda flabbergasted when she said it 'cause no else had mentioned anything. It made me feel good though cause I've been trying to get back into shape for a while and it seems to be finally paying off. If it keeps going this way, maybe I'll make it to my goal. It isn't much really, just to be able to meet the physical requirements for military service. I'm not saying one way or the other if I'll enlist, but I'd like to have the option and not be held back by something like that.

Anyways, other news, my old man is still threatening to take my car. I've looked everywhere for a job, but no one seems interested in hiring me. I know it's cause most places like their employees to look a certain way, and I don't fit that criteria. But such is the life of a fat chick.

Anyways, I'm tired, maybe I'll write more tomorrow.

~NYPD55Chick

So I wrote another exam today, YAY. NOT!!!!!! But at least now it's over. I still have three to write and the next two are the ones I'm not looking forward to. But at least I have until Thursday to study for it.

I can't believe how hyper I am. I need to run or something, and of course the indoor track that I use at the school is closed because of exams!

Other news, yeah, okay, there isn't any.

I guess it'll just be a short post, maybe I'll have more tomorrow. If not, I can post some of this new story I'm working on, but that's a pretty big maybe.

~Later!

But then again, who wouldn't rather be in Miami? Especially when it's kinda cold and snowy outside!

Things have been a little hectic here recently. I wrote my first exam on Saturday. Fun stuff. Yeah, not so much. I have to write another exam tomorrow, but then I get two full days to just chill (and study) before my next one.

Other news, my cold is almost gone now. I haven't sniffled all day. Very promising! Although I suppose that my newly acquired box of clementines has helped. YAY for easy to peel vitamin C!

My mom came up to visit today, which was nice. We had a good heart-to-heart about the future. Or at least she listened while I told her what I was thinking I wanted to do with my life. And for once, she didn't shoot me down! I couldn't believe it! I didn't hear any remarks like "oh, you can't do that" or "But you wouldn't last." Instead, she just sat there and listened while I explained myself. It was nice. Creepy, but nice.

Other news, I nearly had a heart attack yesterday when I came home from my exam. I had been in the door a grand total of twenty minutes when my phone rang. Thinking it was my mom, I answered with some smarmy response, but lo and behold, it was my DAD! I was shocked to say the least, considering that the last time my dad willingly called me (I'm not talking about me calling him,) was in OCTOBER! And what did he want? Just to see how I was. If I hadn't been so shocked I might have asked him what was wrong. That seems to be the only time he ever calls; when something's wrong or he needs something. Now, I'm not saying I'm much better, but I usually call him once a month just to check up on things. I have missed last month cause things got hectic around here, but I am usually pretty good about calling him.

Anyway, so I was talking with my dad and my little sister came on the phone. Apparently, she had caught the chicken pox! I felt soooo bad, because I didn't even know! If I had, I would have sent her some 'Get well soon' balloons or something. You know, just a little something to brighten her day. Anyways, so she says she's almost all better now, which is good, because apparently chicken pox are potentially dangerous for kids. I never knew that. All I know was that I had them when I was in kindergarten, then I gave them to my brother. I don't even remember having them, my knowledge of the incident is based solely on the stories from my family.

All-in-all that was it for news from home, but that's okay, because I can catch up on anything else I missed when I go home at Christmas.

I guess that's it for tonight, I don't know if I'll write tomorrow, I guess it'll depend on how tired I am after my exam *insert enthusiasm here*

Oh well,
~Later!

So I'm thinking, "what in the world am I still doing awake at nearly 6am?" The answer, playing in the snow outside of course! I had to move my car off the road, and I figured that since I was still awake, and the snow is still falling, that maybe I should move it back into the parking lot or something. At least get it off the road so that I don't have to worry about some snowplow coming and taking my side mirror off. So I get outside, and holy crap, that's a lot of snow. Especially for this time of year. Normally, we don't get this much snow until like Late December, Early January. But hey, I love the snow, so I'm not really complaining. So I cleaned the three inches of fluffy white stuff off my car, (not that you'd know it looking at it now,) and having a grand old time. I suppose the fact that I was the only other person out there who wasn't driving a snow plow had something to do with that too... but I'm just guessing. Right now, I'm just thankful that I don't have to drive anywhere. Because the roads are kinda really crappy. Once it stops snowing, then the plows will be able to keep them clear and salted, but until then, it's going to be a mess. YAY for public transit!

Not much else going on. I did my laundry today. Three weeks worth of dirty clothes. I didn't even realise I HAD three weeks worth of clothes! But at least it's done now, and I don't have to worry about trying to find time between exams and studying to go to the laundromat and do it. Then there's also the fact that I got it done before it started snowing. A definite plus!

My cold is going away which makes me really happy. Right now it's just the occasional sniffle, and a semi-lingering cough. Nothing serious, just enough to probably drive people nuts when I write my exams :insert evil laugh which turns into a hacking cough here:

Other news... yeah drawing a blank... Oh well, I guess that's it for the night then.

Later!

So it ends. Sitting in a lecture hall realizing that I'm done til January. I miss the parties we used to have. You know the ones that made going to school on the last day before the holidays fun? Where I grew up we used to bring in board games and video games and movies and just hang out with each other then when the final bell rang it was saying see ya after the holidays to all your friends. University is so anti-climatic. You'd think that with the copious amounts of money we pay that they could at least throw us a party. Ah well, too much to ask for I guess. Now comes the joys of exams. :insert enthusiasm here:

In other news. My cold seems to be starting to go away which is a definite plus. Hopefully it'll be gone by the time I have to write my exams. Probably not, but it's a nice thought.

Not much else going on though. Cold here, but it IS winter (kinda comes with the territory.)

I've started working on some of my stories again, which is exciting. Maybe I'll get brave and post some of one later. We'll see though. I've got about six in the works right now though. And those are just the ones that I can find. I know I have another bunch of half-started stories kicking around somewhere. Hopefully from all these ideas I can pull together something half-way descent.

I'm still looking for a job, but I've put out some more resumes and applications, but some are for summer jobs so I don't know how much help they'll be right now. Oh well, fingers crossed.

Umm... That's pretty well it on this end.

Later!

So I've still got this stupid cold which is making for some fun times. NOT!!!! I discovered today that I don't have to bother with two of my papers because I've missed the ultimate deadlines. Ooops! Yeah, not as broken up over that as I should be. Nothing I can do to change it now.

So all in all that leaves the shortest of the essays to do and studying for my exams. I'm surprisingly okay with that, mind you it could be the cold meds talking. Either way, I ain't gonna complain!

Not much else has transpired in the last 24 hours. I had my last French class for the semester last night, which was odd feeling. But I'm doing really well with it so it'll definitely be something that I continue to pursue. I have Italian tomorrow, and as fate would have it, I suck at Italian. Go Figure! Oh well, maybe I'll just take some more french classes and get out of here as quickly as possible. A general Arts degree or something. I'm starting to go crazy here though. I don't think I'll survive another full year, or at least, I don't think I'll survive more than one more year here. Unfortunately, that doesn't really leave me with many options. But I suppose that doesn't matter because I'm leaning toward joining the military and then if I don't like that as a career, I was thinking I'd move into law enforcement. Definitely a viable option. Another is to pursue something like writing. It's the only other thing I can think of that I am passionate about and that I could potentially make a life out of for myself.

Ah well. What's a girl to do?

I should get going now, I want to work on my crappy essay a little more before I hit the hay, but we all know that is code for I'm going to work on a story or something equally interesting instead. :P

Later!

So... this weekend was not as productive as I had hoped. So now, instead of focusing my energy on upcoming exams, I still have to write three essays! I'm so disappointed in myself. Part of me just doesn't get it! Why do I find it so hard to get motivated? And once I'm motivated, I have a little bit of momentum but that doesn't last! AAAAAGGGGGGGHHHHHH!

Okay, so I feel better now :wink:

I'm starting to feel the pressure of exams, but this kind of pressure, I thrive on. The only down side, I'm getting a cold, so right now my runny red nose could rival Rudolphs! But at least it's festive! :lol:

Ah well, gotta love cold meds, they make for VERY interesting conversations and journals.

Maybe I should sleep now. I hear that helps a cold.... That'd be good....

Later!

Only 22 Days until Christmas, I can't believe it!

This year has gone by so fast that I can't even process everything that has happened. I changed majors. Twice! I finally got my own place, my own car, my own life. Just a year ago, I still felt very much like a kid playing grownup, but now, I feel like I'm finally starting to really grow up. I'm living my life according to MY rules. I am no longer constrained by the ideas my family has about how I should be, who I should be or how I decide to live my life. It's an amazingly liberating feeling, but at the same time, I can't help but be terrified. Now that I have finally openly declared "Look out world here I come!" what if I fail? What if I look back a year from now and see a royal disaster?

Does that mean I'm still not really a 'grown-up' or does the fact that I fear failure and my limitations make me a more responsible adult?

Holy! That's some pretty heavy stuff!

Life is pretty good here, we're expecting snow, but Mother Nature has yet to deliver. I suppose mixed feelings on that front. I LOVE snow, I just am not overly fond of shoveling it or cleaning it off of my car! I hope we get some by Sunday though, a group of friends and I are supposed to hang out and play snow football and it would be that much nicer if there actually was snow. Plus, snow is a lot more forgiving when you get tackled than regular ground.

Anyways, I should go, I have to get some work done today so I can party tonight! plus if I don't get my stuff done, I can't play snow football on Sunday, and that would suck!

Later!

Hi,

I'm new at this whole thing, but I heard about it through a friend and thought I'd give it a try. umm... My name's NYPD55Chick, but most people call me 55 or Chick, I suppose it's easier to remember.

I'm excited for the Holidays. Finally getting a chance to relax before the craziness of the New Year hits. I'm looking forward to the end of exams and the start of a new Semester. I'm currently in college, but I don't know what I want to do yet. It's really frustrating. I mean I spending all this money to try and get a degree but I don't know in what. I have no idea what I want to do with my life, cause it feels like everyone is so focused on what I 'can't' do, they forget to tell me what they think I 'can' do. I know I shouldn't be relying on others to make my decisions for me, but I don't know what else to do. I haven't really lived enough yet to have any sort of Idea about what I am capable of, or what I'm good at.

Anyways. That's what's going on right now.

Later.